Winter break was always amazing during college. You got to come home, spend Christmas with the fam, hang out with old friends, and just when everything started getting a little boring at home, you went back to school. Well, it's not winter break anymore, its just winter. It's real life or well this horrible transition period where you have absolutely no idea what to do next. Some use this time trying to find their dream job because they know exactly what they want to do. Some use it procrastinating in a mindless job because they have no idea what they want to do or they just can't get that perfect dream job. Some travel.. :-) Some sit in their parents basements and play video games until they are kicked out at the age of 30. It's just a very confusing and hard time. The traveling one seems like the best option right?? That one might even be the hardest. You need money, independence, and the ability to be away from your family and friends for weeks or months on end. It's hard. You come back and find out that SURPRISE! Life went on without you. Friends move, get married, get pregnant, nephews grow up, grandparents get sick, and friends go off to war without being able to say goodbye. It's hard to miss things, but its great to experience different things because you are in a new culture. You get to really figure out who you are outside of the environment that you grew up in, that you are comfortable in. You have to just live in the present because only thinking about all the things that you are missing is never going to get you anywhere.

I guess right now I'm at the place where I want to keep experiencing those wonderful new things about other cultures because I've plateaued here in middle America. I have no doubt that staying here would be just as much of an adventure if I really tried hard to make it work, but taking off again seems like the easier root. I have no idea where I am going to be in 6 months and the unknown definitely scares me. I never knew how much I needed a plan until now. I've always had a plan. When I want something, I get it done.. or well at least try. I just can't seem to figure out what I want right now so.. here I sit..
Maybe I should just become wonder woman.. I could save people's lives and "bring the Amazon ideals of love, peace, and sexual equality to 'a world torn by the hatred of men," according to wikipeda. That could be a fun career path.
I love you, Abby. You are one of the most amazing people I know. Your world is full of endless possiblities. I know you will figure it out. WE both need to figure it out. You can have a job for 5 years and think you have everything figured out and then realize it is not what you thought it would be like. Career shameer, pray to God he will show you the way. God has a plan for you, all you need to do is pray and listen to what he is showing you.
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